I never had a chance to say goodbye
Another day that passes; it still doesn't feel real
You're on some kind of permanent vacation now
In a place I can't see or feel
I wish I could rewind all of the years we spent
I'm still associating guilt with it all
Now all that's left are the memories I have of us
Engraved where you lived in my soul
So I imagine every now and then, I'll pick up a pen
And write some words to make sense of this, while in my head
Playing the words you wrote and sang over and over again
I won't forget your voice until I hear it again
Two years later, I'm still stuck in your hospital room
Becoming a prisoner of my own mind
Like quicksand beneath my feet
Every second that passes feels like I'm running out of time
I can't defeat this demon in my head
I've read, talked, and written to you to set me free
But nothing seems to work
Nothing seems to work
You're still not here with me
So I imagine every now and then, I'll pick up a pen
And write some words to make sense of this, while in my head
Playing the words you wrote and sang over and over again
I won't forget your voice until I hear it again
I'm lost in this morbid sea
With no dock in sight
Which way do I go?
The only way is down
It's not enough to remember your voice
It's not enough to sing your songs
I'll let the waves crash over me
And soon enough, I'll surely drown
A fresh wound replaces your voice
A deep scar replaces the wound
A dull ache replaces the scar
Until it's simply a part of you